Bipolar Disorder
“Stop the Stigma – Save Lives”

“Stop the Stigma – Save Lives”

Gregg F. Martin, Ph.D., Major General, US Army (Retired) 

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In July 2014, I was in my 36th year of military service, a 2-star general, combat  veteran, and president of the National Defense University (NDU), located in  Washington DC. I worked for the Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff, the nation’s  highest-ranking military officer, General Martin Dempsey. 

After decades of success, I had become a maniac: extremely disruptive and erratic.  Finally, the Chairman, who was a long-time mentor, boss, and friend, summoned me  to his office and said, “Gregg, I love you like a brother, but your time at NDU is done.  You have until 5:00 p.m. today to resign, or you’re fired…, and you need to get a  mental health exam!” 

Unbeknown to myself and the Army, my genetic predisposition for bipolar disorder  was triggered by the intense stress of the Iraq War in 2003, where I commanded a  combat engineer brigade of thousands of soldiers. 

My brain responded by producing and distributing excessive amounts of dopamine  and endorphins, sending me into a euphoric, high-performing mania that made me feel  fearless, hyper-energized, and like I was Superman. Unfortunately, this mania  damaged my brain circuitry and launched me into a life dominated by unrecognized  bipolar disorder. 

After a year of thrilling combat, with rushing adrenaline, surging bio-chemicals in my  brain, and a powerful, natural “high,” I redeployed to Germany, where the moon of  depression eclipsed my sun of mania.

Unfortunately, the under-production of these same chemicals caused a months-long  depression. I reported my depression, but because I was not suicidal and had no  intention of hurting anyone, medical personnel declared me “fit for duty,” but I  wasn’t. 

After months of hard work at my job, the depression lifted naturally. The structure of  Army life was key in getting me through this difficult period. This completed my first  full up/down cycle of mania/depression, which would become my life pattern. 

My bipolar remained unrecognized by everyone from 2003 to 2014. Meanwhile, I was  promoted twice and assigned to ever-tougher assignments, where the norm was  complexity, budget cuts, and high stress. Yet, mania helped my performance in many  ways by providing ever-higher levels of energy, drive, and creativity. It fueled my  career ascendance, until it didn’t. 

My mania went higher, and my depression sank lower until I rocketed into acute, full blown mania in 2014. Spinning out of control, I became disruptive, erratic, and over the-top in virtually everything I thought, did or said. Thankfully, the Chairman  removed me from command. It was the absolute best decision for myself, my family,  and my health. 

After this, I crashed into dark, crippling, hopeless depression, accompanied by  terrifying delusions. My mind was filled with morbid, vivid imagery of violent death  and dying, what psychiatrists call “passive suicidal ideations.” But, for me, they were  anything but passive. Instead, they were real, powerful, and life-consuming. 

For the next two years, I fought for my life. It wasn’t until a friend helped get me into  the VA that I had a feeling that my condition could change. The clinical staff of the  VA provided me with excellent care, and it was the combination of professional  treatment, along with the love and support of my wife and family, that prevented me  from falling into the abyss. 

After months of treatment, numerous medications, weeks in a VA psychiatric ward,  and electroconvulsive therapy, the addition of the natural element Lithium, a salt, took  my recovery to the next level and stabilized me in September 2016.

My bipolar disorder is now under control but not gone. To keep it at bay, I must take  medications, meet with my doctors, and live a healthy life; mind, body, and spirit. 

My self-care includes exercise, healthy diet, plenty of sleep and water, little to no  alcohol, no drugs, a network of friends, fun activities, faith, and as much as possible,  minimizing stress, anxiety, and anger. 

As a former Army officer, I know that one of the keys to victory in combat is  vigilance. The same holds in my battle with bipolar. As long as I remain faithful to the  task at hand, I will have the high ground and avoid an attack by the fiercest enemy I  have ever faced – bipolar disorder. 

More than 10 million Americans have bipolar disorder. Another 50 million have  depression, post-traumatic stress (PTS), traumatic brain injuries (TBI), or other mental  health disorders that often lead to suicide. Thus, it is likely that nearly every person in  America is affected in some way by mental illness: either themselves, a family member, friend, or colleague. 

That’s the bad news. The good news is that these medical conditions are treatable.  Correctly diagnosed and treated, people can live healthy, happy, successful lives. 

I didn’t want bipolar, but it wanted me. It nearly destroyed everything I value. But,  thanks to the help of a great many others, I’ve been able to transform my ‘gift’ of  bipolar into my mission: “sharing my bipolar story to help stop the stigma and save  lives.” 

I share my experiences, providing knowledge and hope. My purpose is to help save  lives, marriages, families, friendships, careers, and more. 

My vision is that everyone who has a mental health disorder gets medical help free of  stigma. There is no stigma with cancer or diabetes, and neither should there be for  mental illness. 

Science has validated that mental disorders are physiological and not due to a lack of  character or willpower. It’s not a person’s fault they are ill, so we shouldn’t blame  them. Instead, we must understand and accept this scientific truth.

We must all learn to identify the basic symptoms of mental health disorders. Then, if  you or another display them, get medical help, just as you would for a heart attack.  But, don’t wait; it could be a matter of life and death. 

Battling mental illness has been my most brutal fight. It’s incumbent upon all of us to  learn about it and help educate and encourage others. Join me in helping to stop the  stigma! 

Gregg Martin is a 36-year Army combat veteran, retired 2-star general, and bipolar  survivor. He is a qualified Airborne-Ranger-Engineer and Strategist. He holds degrees  from West Point (BS) and MIT (MS and PhD). He is a father, author, and speaker  who lives with his wife in Cocoa Beach, FL. His forthcoming book is entitled  “Battling bipolar — my war with mental illness.” 

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This piece represents the views of the author. It does not represent the official views  of the US government or Department of Defense, nor do they vouch for its accuracy.


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